It happened in 2006. To be clear I must explain that I never was a christian (I always disagreed with their teachings, even when I was a small child so I was sort of christian proof) and I wasn’t thinking or believing in Satan, nevertheless it somehow happened… If earlier someone had told me I would never believe in it, yet Satan came and… it was real beyond any doubt. Only person who experienced it could understand fully what I mean. But let’s back to the beginning.
One day in a middle of researching some informations about black magick, unexpectedly and suddenly I felt a powerful and overwhelming presence. I was so shocked and surprised by that usual experience (never had anything even remotely similar) and all I could do was ask in mind who was that and… I received clear, strong and even more shocking answer: SATAN! Uninvited and confusing joy and energy flooded through me. It was so incredible, so intense, I felt complete union with Satan. I can’t describe that in words, it was too amazing. As if I became god, all powerful, everything at once, felt power of creation and destruction, full of energy and much, much, much more! It was complete ecstasy! You can’t be the same after that experience. I just felt in love with Satan in an instant and there was no turning back, my heart was singing, only my mind was stuttered and confused about what to do with all that.
In order to be brief and avoid lot of personal thoughts (it’s not the place for them) I can say that it took me few days to process it. In that time His presence was very intense. I was so charged up, I barely could sleep and was awaking after 4 hours, ready and fully relaxed. I was wondering how this could be possible? My heart was overwhelmed with joy and clear, intense feeling, knowing what it wants, but my reason was telling – it’s impossible. I didn’t know what to do so I asked for answer in a sleep. And I got it.
I woke up again after 4 hour with the sudden realization that the heart is clear about it and when my reason lacks of knowledge, it doesn’t matter at the moment, I can acquire it later but in a meantime I should follow my heart. It may sound trivial but it isn’t. The question ‘how’ isn’t important, ‘what’ was already decided in my heart and I couldn’t go against it. So I accepted Satan fully and again, joy and energy flooded through me with a stronger wave. I felt Satan so powerfully, it was amazing!
After that with time that intensity withdrawn, I couldn’t stay on that level too long but it was anyway lasting already few days. Although with time I went back to more normal state, however permanently changed, the connection with Satan stayed in the background of my mind. I felt different then before. As if I reached another level of my development. I knew who I was, what to do, I was sure of my path, I felt I was born for it, like whole life was leading me to it. That was many years ago and I never had any doubt about my choice since then. There was no single day I wouldn’t be thinking and connecting with Satan.